Oh God.. it took a long time to see myself as – and call myself – an artist . I never thought I was good enough and also thought I was going to be judged by the “real artists” I was scared to be called a fraud.
The first time I said – out and loud – “I am an artist” was on a drunken night in London with my beloved friend (also an artist in denial) George Gannon.
We were screaming at each other – really screaming – “YOU ARE AN ARTIST” “YOU ARE AN ARTIST” many times over and over again.. until it changed to “I AM AN ARTIST” – Thank God people couldn’t hear us, the music was very loud, two crazy drunk artists finally having the courage to accept and love themselves.
Actually, it was a pity people couldn’t hear us. Maybe, if they could hear us we would be able to help someone else going through the same thing.
The screams, the hugs, the crazy dance were all very liberating. The feeling of freedom and power were amazing! .. the hangover next day no so much.. 😛 haha
Maybe.. you reading this is thinking “Oh God, this is silly!” but you know what!? The feeling of freedom and power are still with me every time I call myself an artist, so with all due respect.. I don’t give a rats ass.. Hahaha
Finally calling myself an artist took me out of the fraud box. I can experiment, get it wrong, but most important I can feel bad without the fear of being judged.. do you get it?
Knowing now that “feeling bad” is part of the process and I also know that it will pass. I understand now that “the feeling bad” is just myself getting out of my comfort zone and learning.
Life is not all flowers, Instagram life is not real. Problems will happen, bad days will happen.. the process is long and hard, but the bad days won’t last forever.
Lift your head up, take a deep breath, allow yourself to feel bad for a bit, than pay attention to what the Universe is trying to tell you.. take it all in and grow!
Trust yourself .. you are stronger than what you think – I surprise myself a lot.
AND if you are an artist but is scared of saying it out loud… try screaming ☺ You might hear yourself and change your life forever. <3
Nós estávamos gritando um para o outro – gritando mesmo – “VOCÊ É UM ARTISTA” “VOCÊ É UM ARTISTA” muitas e muitas vezes… até que a nossa fala mudou para a “EU SOU UMA ARTISTA” – Graças a Deus a musica estava alta e as pessoas não estavam escutando, dois loucos bebados artistas finalmente tendo coragem de se aceitar e de se amar.
Confie em você mesma.. você é mais forte do que pensa – Eu me surpreendo muito!
E se você é um artista, mas ainda está com medo de falar isso em voz alta… teste gritar 😀 Talvez você mesma escute e sua vida vai mudar para sempre <3